Syukien

This isnt a good character im proud of
This character represents an obbsessive kind of love, symptoms of jealousy, anger, depression, possesiveness, avoidentcy, manics

What is he up to?

1/17/2025- My heart hurts really bad like compressions, I keep jittering and shaking.
2/2/2025- I dont feel real, nothing feels real. I can barely recognize what im doing.
2/3/2025- I feel like a tweaker
2/5/2025- got the shakes, i think today will be good
2/8/2025- i think im struggling with derealisarion or depersonalization whatever the fuck its called, I don't feel real and things seem louder than they really are. I can barely understand the things im doing and i forget most of the day and i keep eating when i dont feel hungry at all until my stomach hurts i can barely compreheand whats hapoening anymore i dont want to do anything and everything i dont know what to to now but let it passp. This isnt recent its been happening since december
3/6/2025 i am tweaking and i feel really tired, just really bad i dont feel good its like im gonna barf
8/21/2025 I dont believe in rehabilitation, If i dont want to i wont until I find some reason
10/--/2025 I dont feel like i can love someone properly without causing some kind of problems.
11/--/2025 Sometimes it feels better to hurt people so i dont have to discover myself it feels good to stay in the comfort of my isolation and avoidance
12/18/2025 I want to be worse and damn it feels sufficating when I cant, its like loosing all responibility caring about yourself is just so reliefing.
I think i should watch more movies, people are too bothersome to learn from and movies teach real lessons.

note to self; its your own god damn website

Information

Name: Syukien
Gender: regard me as whatever u want i dont want a label and everythings feels icky
Height: 5'7 -5'9
Artists: Overtonight, Friedbyfluoride, WifiSkeleton, Crayon
Animal rencarnation: id wanna be those fat seals on the beach who are effortlessly loved just for existing
pastimes: sleeping, moping, eating, social media, spacing out for hours at a time, grieving the past (even if it was worse), feeling bad for yourself, ignoring people, distancing, occasional manics, relapsing, disapointing people, ...

outfit gallery- (descriptions to draw out later) Main- "I dont care anymore" Formal Outside Outside 2 Christmas- A warm knit sweater (very simular to his long-sleeve shirt) with a christmas tree in the middle, thin pajama pants, and slide on sandals. i always end up feeling cold

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